teacher training part 93024

As promised, here is the training schedule for the NYC August-October teacher training program:

Monday-Thursday: 10:00am – 4:00pm
Friday: 10:00am – 6:00pm

so, that’s a real monkey wrench, eh?

i have polled everyone for advice. but in the end, no one can make this decision for me. well, at this point, it’s relaly just coming up with a plan B, seeing as i won’t know until the end of this weekend what options are open to me.

the more that i think about it, the more that i wonder: how much of this is supposed to be a difficult decision? i quit xanga, i started school. that wasn’t easy. that was about as disruptive of a decision as i could possibly have made. and while i’m still not done with my MA, i know that i will be one day, and that those choices i made three years back started a whole bunch of wheels in motion. and i may not be making tons of money– i mean, if that was my first priority i would never have ended up here, no way in hell, i graduated from stern iwth a degree in marketing for chrissakes– i am spiritually so much richer now than i was four years ago. it’s a point of enormous pride for me, how much i have grown.

i asked my mom today: maybe i’ve been doing so well over the past two years at work just so that when this opportunity came along, i could ask for 2 months off, and get it. i mean, who knows?

ever since i received that email, with the hours of TT posted, i have been trying to rationalize this for myself. rationalize this opportunity. i know nearly everyone i have spoken to has said, this is not the time. you can wait for the next time that this chance comes your way. but something inside me says, insistently, that no, i can’t wait, and this, right now, is the time that it is supposed to happen.

i don’t know. i don’t know. i don’t know.

of course, this is all moot if i don’t make it past all the different assessment rounds.

also, i had another TT nightmare last night. but (fortunately) i no longer remember any of it.